I would try and walk in a way that would help me feel less pain...but it didn't.
I would not use or move my arm much as a way to avoid my pain...but it didn't work either.
I even tried doing very little in my home and within my life thinking the less I did the less pain I would feel...that didn't work either.
To put it bluntly...I went out of my way to avoid anything that I thought would bring me more pain....I was wrong! What I ended up doing to myself was to bring more pain to my life.
When we're afraid of our pain it has more control in our lives. We aren't as active as we'd like to be because we're trying to avoid feeling more pain. It's a natural and normal thing to want to protect yourself and it's natural too to not want to cause yourself pain...who does?...BUT!...when we live our life being afraid of our pain....are we really living?
I've been saying for awhile now that I would rather do something in my life being active and hurting for what I've done, than to hurt just because that's the way life is now. When I'm hurting for what I've done, I've also been able to smile at the memories I've made. These memories help me through the really bad days and it gives me encouragement to keep living my life for me and not my pain.
Facing my fears about my pain took time and it wasn't always a pretty thing. I became self abusive and I hurt myself in many ways trying to deal with my fears. With support, understanding and patience, I started a different journey with my pain and I'm proud to say...I'm not afraid of it anymore. I still feel it every day but I am not afraid anymore.
Our lives with pain begin at the end of our fear of living with our pain. We can move beyond our fear and we can we learn to accept our pain and to keep living our lives. We don't have to be afraid of our pain anymore but the choice is ours to make. I hope you make YOU your choice and not your fears.
take good care of you okay?