Why do I bother working so hard to manage my life with pain? Why did I lose so much weight only to now be faced with issues because of what I've lost. When will I be able to stop having to always work around my pain? I have even questioned whether I'm strong enough to really do this the way I want...WHY?
I'm sharing this with you for a reason. I'm human too. Even though most days I can smile through the pain and the tears, there are still days when I'm feeling a little beaten and a little raw, when I can't seem to stop crying and I wonder why me.
Yesterday I received some news that kind of shook me up a bit. It was the cherry on top of an already rough week and it knocked me down a little. I thought I had prepared myself for what was to come but it still caught me all the same. Has this ever happened to you? What do you do to nurture yourself?
I hope you can understand that today I am throwing myself the biggest F*&K The World party I have ever had. I'm going to take the time to feel the pain I'm feeling and have a good cry. And then I'm going to figure out what I'm going to do to move forward. This may knock me down today but I will get up.
I hope you can understand this.