Before I go I would like to ask you something though...have you ever done something that although may have caused you to feel more pain than "normal", you can still smile through the pain because you did something to earn it? It's an odd question I know but think about it a second...
I've come to the conclusion that I will live with pain every day for the rest of my life, I can't avoid that. But I have also concluded that I would much rather hurt for doing something that makes me smile and enjoy my life than hurting just because that's the way life is now.
Don't hide from what makes you smile, or what helps you to live beyond your pain...seek it out! and then take a ME day to recover...live for you and not your pain.
take good care of you