Although my surgery was and is considered successful, I had some serious complications afterwards. From facial paralysis, to losing my sense of taste, to muscle spams and pain...oh and I can't forget the constant headaches, blurred and double vision too...I had a rough go with it. It's taken me longer than I had expected or wanted to heal, but I'm healing.
I'm now down to only the headaches and the odd facial and eye spasm, and my sense of taste is still a little off too...but the main thing is...I'm healing. I've been doing a lot of sleeping, couch surfing, soaking in my tub with bubbles and anything else that will help me cope, manage, and heal. And yeah...there's been some chocolate too and even a day in the park to feed the squirrels before the snow came.
I've been doing this site for almost 3 years now and I've put a lot of time, effort and energy into it. I've enjoyed it immensely but it's a lot of work for me especially on the days when I just can't. I've been torn this month about what I'm going to do with the site...it's due for a renewal in the new year and I'll have a decision to make.
When I started this site...I wanted to help other people like me to learn to live with their pain, to support, empower, challenge and encourage you too...I just wanted to help. Learning to live with our pain isn't easy and it can make us feel like we're alone in the world and well...I guess I wanted others to know they weren't alone and by "meeting" you all...it has helped me to learn that I'm not alone either...thank you!
I'll be honest...I'm not sure right now what I'm going to do here. I've got some time until the renewal period and I've got some decisions to make. I've also got another surgery coming up...this one to remove a lump from my breast. Yep...I get to meet another surgeon...oh joy! But I'm glad its coming out! I just don't know when it'll be yet. So if you're counting...this one will be the third surgery in a year. That can take a lot out of a person and it's taken the best out of me right now. But I'm trying.
I want to say thank you too for all the support, kind words, pictures, messages and comments you've left for me! I'm blessed, lucky and thankful and I know that I have your support. I want you to know that you have done me a world of good and I can't say thanks enough.
I'll come here when I can and if I've got something to say...but I hope you'll keep checking out the other entries I've written and/or shared over the years...there's a lot!
please take good care of you okay?