When we are going through something it always feels worse because we are the ones going through it. We can't imagine anyone ever feeling as low as we do at that point. At times it's easy to think you are alone and no one else could possibly understand when you're not even sure you understand yourself what's going on or why you're feeling what you're feeling.
I know how that feels. I think too because we know how that feels, we are able to have empathy towards others. It gives us a silent understanding that doesn't need words to explain because it often triggers the pain again in us.
My comment yesterday was not meant to be insensitive or uncaring. It was meant to only to say that you are not alone. There are others having gone through life altering struggles, maybe in different ways than you did, but others are struggling too. Life isn't always easy and there will be days when you wonder why...why you...why now...when will it ever end.
I do apologize if what I said yesterday in anyway diminished your feelings. I did not mean to. But I hope you do realize that you aren't alone in this pained life and that you do have choices and options. Will you seek them out?
take good care of you please