I don't quite know how....

Truth be told? I don't quit know how I survived the early days of my journey through pain. I'm not really sure how any of us survives it. To have our lives flipped completely over...how does anyone survive that? 
But we do...don't we? Somehow we make it through. Day by day and sometimes? let's be honest here...it's minute by minute isn't it? It's baby step by baby step. But we do get through it...gradually.

And some days you may not even feel like you are...and you may not even realize the times when you have...both are okay!!...but eventually the pain gets a little more bearable. We learn to cope, we learn to manage, and we learn what we're truly capable of...even when living a hurting life.

I honestly don't know how I survived the early days, though I am surprised I did. I didn't always handle my pain well. I didn't always think I was strong enough, capable enough...I didn't believe in Me and I hurt myself. I still experience my pain, and my down days too, but I know now...that not only will I survive this but I will do so in my own way. I'm learning to love and to accept even the parts I'd rather hide...and I'm taking my steps...daily. 

Maybe you're wondering too...how you survived...I think we did it because we are strong enough. We just didn't realize it. Maybe now you will? 

​Take good care of you please
​Tammy