I'm starting to wonder...
I've had some busy days lately and I've been hurting because of it. Yesterday I had a conversation with someone that left me feeling a little "grumpy". It went a little something like this...
Friend: So how are you doing?
Me: I'm hurting. I've had a busy few days.
Friend: Oh yeah? what did you get up to?
Me: Over four days...I've gone grocery shopping twice carrying everything home, 5 loads of laundry (the cat got sick in my bed twice this week), did the dishes, tidied up around the house, I've been on the bus to the mall twice, went to the farmers market and walked to my parents. And I've been working on a few mirrors and other projects too. It felt good to be busy but now I'm hurting for it.
Friend: You think that's bad? Let me tell you about my week.....
Your mind is your 360 degree universe. Where the mind goes, the behind follows. Clear the mind of false or misleading information; and above all, maintain a healthy and productive relationship with your own head.
Picture taken by my daughter at the Pinery
Have you ever had feelings of not being good enough? Ever questioned your own self-worth? Ever thought "I could be loved if only I..."? (one thought I used to fill my blank in with was "if only I could be skinny"). Ever thought you just didn't "measure up"? When did it happen and what happened to leave you feeling that way? Do you know? Deep and personal questions I know...but please do give them some thought.
A lot of what we think and feel for ourselves, and even love/hate about ourselves...can actually come from someone else...from an experience in our lives that left us hurting...and it impacts how we think and feel about ourselves even today. But you know what? WE are good enough! We just need to heal the part(s) of us that's hurting.
Today I'd like to share something I found and ask that you give it some thought. As you read this...explore and challenge the thoughts you hold about yourself...where did these thoughts come from? why do you not feel good enough? (and challenge the thoughts you hold) We can't heal what we can't acknowledge.
Please take a look at the following and really give yourself and the beliefs you hold about yourself...some careful consideration. Challenge your thoughts! Challenge your beliefs! Heal what hurts and allow yourself the love and acceptance you need. We can move forward from this and we can become stronger through it.
Take good care of you and always remember....YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH! you always have been! you just didn't know it...maybe now you will?
(we're not done with this topic)
You have to live through the worst parts of life so you never take the best parts for granted.
Picture taken on the pond.
How many times have you stumped your doctor with what you're living with? How many times have you heard..."I'm not really sure what's going on...let's do some tests." Truth is? Our doctors struggle just as much as we do at times to figure out what's going on with us and what can be done to help us. But when you're struggling to find or even get a proper diagnosis what do you do? How do you handle that?
I don't know about you...but it took me years! years of struggling and fighting my doctor before I started getting answers. And in between it all? Well I didn't always handle it so well. I was angry, I was hurting, I was impatient for answers, and I was a bit of a bully. I wanted a quick fix solution to my pain and I didn't want to have to do a lot of work to get it either...I wanted my life back...NOW! And I even got to the point that I was ready to give up.
If you're struggling to get a proper diagnosis...how are you managing and coping with that? Are you ready to give in and give up? It's okay if you are...but...don't! Are you frustrated and angry with how long it's taking? It may take a lot of time and a lot of tests before you find the answers you're wanting....but don't give up!
When you're busy creating your own fulfillment, you won't feel the need to seek it from others.
Picture taken at the Pinery
is living life with chronic pain...doing the best I can with everyday.