I didn't realize it today though. I've been feeling this way for awhile now and I'm trying to dig myself out of it. I do appreciate your patience.
You see the thing is...it started last May for me. When I found out about the surgery and the mass near my brain, I kind of lost it for a bit. Going through the surgery and the complications afterwards, I had a hard time keeping myself positive and I couldn't come here trying to pick you up when I needed to pick me up first. I felt like a hypocrite so I stayed away...hoping not to drag anyone down with me.
But I've learned that staying away only kept me down longer than I should have been. That it was okay for me to admit I was struggling and that I needed help. It's okay. I know that now. To need help only makes us human and we are so damn human some days. I know I am.
I'm holding on and trying to bring myself back...being on the Facebook page has helped me to gather my pieces up again. I've been struggling too on what to write/share here...my thoughts have been rampant and sleep is evading me, so what thoughts I do have are a jumbled mess some days. But I'm trying. I will gain my ground again and I will keep moving gently forward.
Thank you for all of your support and understanding! Gently forward we go?
Take good care of you please.