​HA! yes I did :) it's funny! 

It's been awhile since I've been here and as much as I've needed the healing break, I've missed the site. It's been just over a month now since my surgery and my healing has been slow. I've needed a course of steroids to help me deal with the facial paralysis but I'm coming along. Because of the surgery, I lost a lot of my taste and that is one thing that I'm struggling to get back. The nerve is still a little compressed and swollen hence why I still have symptoms of the paralysis. My eye sight is improving but very slowly. When I'm tired, my eye struggles worse and my face often feels like it's melting...(no I'm not the Wicked Witch of the West) The left side of my face is moving better but it's still not the same as the right yet. I'm just glad I'm not a drooling gibbering mess anymore. (there are some upsides)

I've been sleeping a lot and I've been trying to keep busy doing the things I need for me. One thing I like about the cooler temps are my bubbles baths again....I've had a few of those to help me along. Because of the paralysis, I didn't get my needles for over a month and my body was in revolt with pain. I finally got them on Friday, and I'm hoping it'll help me along. Little steps right? yeah

Today, we believe God wants you to know that you can get through a bad day.

​When you're having a bad day, you have a choice. You can complain and gripe and dwell on the misery, or you can let go of it and look for the good, and maybe, just maybe, even laugh about it.




Picture taken on the pond

**surgical pictures included - be cautioned**

Twelve days ago, I underwent surgery to remove a mass that was millimeters from my brain. While taking care of that...my surgeon also repaired a hole in my eardrum, and he also broke and reset some bones in my ear with the hopes of improving my hearing...I guess I got three operations in one. 

I'm experiencing some side effects of the surgery but I'm healing slowly. The surgeon says the side effects should ease off in a month or two and I'm hoping they do! So far, I've lost the taste on the left side of my tongue, the tinnitus in my ear is worse now than ever and the popping and nerve impulses are driving me nuts. My eyes are impacted a bit too and can get very watery and blurry at times. I can handle a lot of body pain but pain in my head? yeah I'm not so good with that. There is some minor facial paralysis too and I've dribbled my drink on me many times. 

I was given Tramadol after the surgery and for the first week or so it was a blessing to have...I slept a lot and it seemed like a week went by in a blur and fog of sleepiness and pain pills. But oh did I get bunged up! I've weaned myself off the pain pills but some days I'm wishing I had more. Good thing I don't feel guilty for just going back to bed when I need it.