Do you ever just get sick and tired of being sick and tired? Yeah me too! and lately I've been really F*&King sick of it. OH...yeah...language warning :) sorry
I think I've fallen off my wagon and my donkey is in a ditch. I'm mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted...I'm tired...and I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I'm sick and tired of people treating me in ways I would never treat them. And I'm sick and tired of them thinking it's okay.
I'm sick and tired of hurting all the time and having little energy yet I have a mind that's wide awake and wants to do things.
I'm sick and tired of having to "accommodate" my pain into my life...of having to plan and prepare for it.
I'm sick and tired of having to do things in my life differently because of my pain.
I'm sick and tired of having to wake up each morning and mentally prepare myself for yet another day of pain.
I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired and I'm tired of feeling pain...and I've damn well had enough of it.
I think I've fallen off my wagon and my donkey is in a ditch. I'm mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted...I'm tired...and I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I'm sick and tired of people treating me in ways I would never treat them. And I'm sick and tired of them thinking it's okay.
I'm sick and tired of hurting all the time and having little energy yet I have a mind that's wide awake and wants to do things.
I'm sick and tired of having to "accommodate" my pain into my life...of having to plan and prepare for it.
I'm sick and tired of having to do things in my life differently because of my pain.
I'm sick and tired of having to wake up each morning and mentally prepare myself for yet another day of pain.
I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired and I'm tired of feeling pain...and I've damn well had enough of it.
It takes a lot of energy to plaster a smile on a hurting body each and every day...yet we hear all the time... "you don't look like you're hurting".
That's another thing I'm sick and tired of! You don't look like you're hurting....what the F*&K do you want me to look like? Would you feel better if I was a crying blubbering mess? HUH? Would that make my pain easier for you to accept and believe? Screw you! I've been there and I ain't going back just to make you feel better! If you can't see the pain it's because I've gotten damn good at hiding it while simply smiling and saying "I'm Fine".
Well you know what? I'm not FINE! I'm not OKAY! I'm hurting.
And I'm sick and tired of it.
But I know too this feeling will pass and I will eventually move through this period...but for now? I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired and I'm tired of fighting this alone.
That's another thing I'm sick and tired of! You don't look like you're hurting....what the F*&K do you want me to look like? Would you feel better if I was a crying blubbering mess? HUH? Would that make my pain easier for you to accept and believe? Screw you! I've been there and I ain't going back just to make you feel better! If you can't see the pain it's because I've gotten damn good at hiding it while simply smiling and saying "I'm Fine".
Well you know what? I'm not FINE! I'm not OKAY! I'm hurting.
And I'm sick and tired of it.
But I know too this feeling will pass and I will eventually move through this period...but for now? I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired and I'm tired of fighting this alone.
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