Is the face you wear out in public the same face you wear when at home? If you're like me you're probably saying "no".
When I'm out of my home I put on a "brave face" hiding my pain. If you know me well you will see it in my eyes no matter how hard I try to hide it. A quick smile and a hurried "I'm fine" will fool most people though. I can even manage a convincing "I'm good" when I need to.
When you're out and about, what does your face look like? Do you hide behind your smile while trying to calm the rage that is your body? Do you put on a brave face?
What's it like when you come home? Does your body instantly feel all the pain you've been trying to ignore all day. Does it feel like a switch has suddenly been turned on and it's like your body knows home is where it's safe to fall apart?
When I'm out of my home I put on a "brave face" hiding my pain. If you know me well you will see it in my eyes no matter how hard I try to hide it. A quick smile and a hurried "I'm fine" will fool most people though. I can even manage a convincing "I'm good" when I need to.
When you're out and about, what does your face look like? Do you hide behind your smile while trying to calm the rage that is your body? Do you put on a brave face?
What's it like when you come home? Does your body instantly feel all the pain you've been trying to ignore all day. Does it feel like a switch has suddenly been turned on and it's like your body knows home is where it's safe to fall apart?
It's like that for me when I come home too. While I'm out I'm constantly telling myself to hold it together, that the pain isn't that bad, and the best one..."you're almost home". Home is where we feel most comfortable. It is our safety zone and our sanctuary. Home is where we can "fall apart" when we need to.
When living with chronic pain sometimes you will wear a mask to hide all that you're truly feeling. And sometimes we wear the mask because we want to hide. Hide from the world, hide from those around us and hide from ourselves too. Sometimes the mask comes in handy though doesn't it? When you're around people who just don't understand, it helps you to protect yourself from their comments and their doubt.
What makes you put on your mask and hide? What are you hiding from the world? Who's the real you behind the mask? When you're finally home and the mask comes off, what do you do to soothe yourself and care for your needs?
When living with chronic pain sometimes you will wear a mask to hide all that you're truly feeling. And sometimes we wear the mask because we want to hide. Hide from the world, hide from those around us and hide from ourselves too. Sometimes the mask comes in handy though doesn't it? When you're around people who just don't understand, it helps you to protect yourself from their comments and their doubt.
What makes you put on your mask and hide? What are you hiding from the world? Who's the real you behind the mask? When you're finally home and the mask comes off, what do you do to soothe yourself and care for your needs?
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